(by Pia Fridhill) This song is probably the most multil-layered on the album, content-wise as well as melodically. Autumn Love was hard to write. The lyrics are full of hidden meanings, contraditions and contrasts, unspoken sorrows meddled with positive, hopeful exlamations - all facets of life in a long relationship. Being two strong minded individuals, Jens and I met in a phase of our lives when the synchronicity of our plans and dreams was close to a hundered percent. Just like any couple in love, we stormed through the first years of marriage building the fundament of our lives together: house purchase and renovation, designing patio and garden, getting a dog (since we couldn't get children) and pursuing our repsective careers. Jens being a teacher for English and Spanish slowly rose through the layers of state hierarchy while I made a go for it as a musician.
We all know that being in love is quite different than loving someone with a 40 year perspective. Four to six years into the relationship, the hormones that constantly make you want to touch your partner, hold hands, kiss, yearn for a close skin-on-skin-session, these serotonins sap out, almost without notice. You become partners in crime, partners of the project called LIFE, building, organizing, juggling logistics back and forth until the only real quality time you find is in your holidays. Thinking back on those early days, it's almost like we were two different people back then.
Luckily, Jens and I still have the synchronicity of dreams that I believe is essential for being and staying together. Still, we've both made sacrifices and compromises, just like anyone living togther with another person. There are things that I wished he would be or do and there are certainly things he'd wish were different about me. We've both had to lower our sights and maybe that's what's the melancholy verses of Autumn Love are about. At the same time, unexpected developments have enriched our relationship to an extent that they actually make up for the "lost" qualities, hence the positive harmonization and atmosphere of the refrain and cello solo part.
Autumn Love is my first experiment with counter melodies. Jens composed the guitar line, I came up with the vocal melody and then added (while feverishly learning the arranging software Sibelius!) a cello line that not only counteracted Jens guitar line but also worked as a "question-answer" to my vocal melody. On top of all this, Stefan Michalke added an accordion line to counter the cello melody. All these layers express the lyrics musically.
The expression "Sugar in my bowl" (1st verse) is a reference to a blues song from the 20s by Bessie Smith with an implicit cry for the kind of romantic closeness that dwindles over time. However, if you have something, as a couple, that glues and welds you together - like we have with our music - there will alwas be a "we"-feeling, a "togetherness" that makes it almost impossible to picture ourselves NOT being partners. Even if part of me feels like I've "settled" in some areas there's another part of me that knows I've won the lottery, big time! That's why I can promise you I'll be yours, forever.